Now

Today I awake from what I have so fondly dubbed a coma (a period of time of more than 8 hours that I sleep.) , I found that I had received a text message from Justin apologizing for not answering me sooner and that he will call me tomorrow morning to explain.

Frankly, I don't know if I should believe him at all anymore. It just seems like there is always a new excuse for why he isn't here yet and why he isn't answering me. I sincerely hope that I am not just in denial and that he does have valid reason for everything that is happening I don't want to lose faith in people for ever and I feel that is a thing that will happen.

I already feel like I have kinda lost one of my best friends (Adam ), we had this conversation that got mighty awkward although it's not really clear as to why it became so damned awkward. I asked him a hypothetical question about what he looks for in a partner, and if the religion thing that he mentioned was set in stone, and I asked him hypothetically "What if the girl was me?" and he got weird.

Eh, hopefully I will know more tomorrow.