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So last week I had lunch with John(the first one for those who have read previous blogs you know who he is) and it went well for awhile and then he told me he loves me. Which was interesting for many reasons not the least of which is that he no longer knows me. He remembers the 17 year old me, the girl who was so in love with him that I alienated my original best friend Red, the girl who he ruined for every other relationship I have had since.

He tried to kiss me as he left and I told him no. I am so over it. I didn't know if I was but seeing him is what made me sure. More accurately smelling him is what made me sure (chemical attraction is no longer there for me). I will always feel something for him but t is no longer that deep abiding love that once was. I will also always be here for him as his friend but no more.

On Thursday Mrs. Amber(Red's mom) is coming to pick me up and take me with her to Georgia to visit him. I am apprehensive but excited. Her and I have never really spent that much time together so I am hoping for it to go really well I really want for us to FINALLY get along. I do respect her very much I just hope she gets a chance to see that for the first time in 11 years. Honestly I love her a little too just because she has put up with so much from me and Red and many other people.

After I get back from Georgia I have to get ready to go to Miami for two days for a wedding with Danielle. I intend to make it the most amazing time for her, I want every one to be jealous of her :)