So here I sit

It's fairly early in the morning....I keep thinking about how people always try to play me for a fool....It really kinda pisses me off ....but not only that it is disrespectful....and hurtful ....so tired of people that I love ...that I would give my life for fucking with my head...Why is it that I can tell people everything straight up but they gotta act like its a game when I ask a fucking question??? I find it so funny that the one person I thought was my best friend... the one...my life......is the one person I can't fucking reach......I feel like he is playing me for a fucking fool.......Letting me wreck my relationship with Jason on purpose(even more than it was already) ... If I find out that this is what is going on I will never talk to him again..... We will be forever over...that is just how I fucking feel......

I am gonna just take some time out of my life to be alone........ I am gonna let Craig keep our son for a little while and I am considering asking Jason to find some where else to stay for a little while cause I really need some space.....though I might just find some where else for me to be...... after I fix my car and all that happy stuff......I just need a breather from my life.....I need to get my head right.......Figure some shit out .......

I guess that is it for now